A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila 2

Well last night was the finale of A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila 2, a show I shamefully watched for most of its run both last season and this season. I have now idea why I watch it, other than it is like watching a train wreck. A horrible, awful train wreck that you can't tear your eyes away from. Yes, watching these people makes me feel good about myself, but there is something more. A social experiment gone terribly wrong, with painful stereotyping and categorizing of masculine and feminine that is just so damn intriguing. The whole show comes across as very scripted and calculated. Tila's speeches are well rehearsed and flawless. They have obviously done many takes to achieve this level of "reality," and people are eliminated in predictable fashion in order to heighten drama. I knew from the beginning of this season that Tila would have to choose a girl just to prove she was bi to all the skeptical people out there and sure enough she did.

But what I did not expect was to have a dream about Tila Tequila last night, where I felt the need to go to her house and comfort her after she was rejected by the girl she tried to give the final key to. So maybe I watch the show because Tila has this crazy way of making everybody care for her, even intellectuals who look down on her show but can't look away. In my dream I genuinely was concerned for her feelings. How does this girl do it? I would say that she is just a phenomenal actor playing a part, but I really don't think that is it. She comes across on her show as someone who genuinely cares for all the contestants, seems to honestly "put herself out there" and take risks with these strangers for not just the fame but maybe for love? Her concern for crushing the loser both seasons came across as very genuine. Her reaction to Kristi not taking the key was defensive and vulnerable. It was anger and sadness and loss and self-loathing for her mistakes and just felt real. So real that I had to have a dream where I went and comforted her, talked to her and let her cry on my shoulder. If I believed Tila could act I would still be very much under the impression that it really is all just an elaborate set-up for drama's sake, but despite the set-up there is something there that doesn't seem contrived. Maybe I am gaining respect for her? I think that is it. She is either a genius actor worth respecting for what it is, or a decent human being with real feelings for these people, worth respecting. Well, I'll be tuning in for A Shot at Love 3, gross as that sounds.

And because Dani is hot, here is a pic from season one. This must be a promo pic. I've never seen it before.